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💡 This site is about oneself, not about others.

Mark logged on the internet, and stumbles upon an article. The article called him a loser and a coward. Mark was furious, he jumped up and down, shook fists angrily towards the cloud. It was not that the article called him a loser that made him angry, it was because the article was right.

The above scenario resonates heavily with me, it felt like “truth should hurt”, but the search engine told me a better one:

The truth hurts, but that doesn’t mean it always does. What really hurts is living a truth that never existed.

— Source: The Truth Matters To Me, Even If It Hurts

Imagine me, just entered adulthood, finding out that I was living in truths which never existed this whole time, it takes courage to face the facts, and most importantly, to admit one’s mistake.

I was wrong, and I was furious, I was deceived by school, by society, by media, by governments.

I shook fists angrily towards the sky, claiming it was all their fault.

But the only way to change is to take full responsibility of one’s life, and that is to know:

  1. No one owes you anything.
  2. No one is going to save you.
  3. No one is going to do it for you.

It is easier to imagine that one day a glorious saviour will descend from somewhere else to erase all your sufferings, to help you achieve as a person, or to lead you to paradise.

Alas, what really hurts is living a truth that never existed.

We can keep pretending what we assumed to be true as truth while deep down we clearly know it isn’t, or we can face our fears and decide to change.

It takes courage to admit we were wrong, to admit we were stupid believing in blatant lies, and it takes courage to face the fear of change.

Sometimes we forgot the findings we found out some time earlier, I was constantly amazed by findings that I, me, myself found out years ago.

Therefore, I decided to write down these findings, for everyone, and especially, for myself, to constantly remind me what I have found out.

I write about:

  1. The Paradoxical Self-Improvement
  2. The World of Deception
  3. Some Pretentious Philosophical BS

We are shaped by our beliefs, and beliefs are what we assumed to be true.

This site does nothing but to tell you, deep down, what you already know.

Technical Details

I used the awesome framework Astro.js and the fascinating theme AstroPaper template to quickly assemble the first version of the site.

For usual me, I would write a brand new static site generator and content management software to build this site, alas, I suck at building websites I have so many ideas that I want to articulate, that I cannot delay writing the content anymore.

Contact

Pretentious Info Email: contact@pretentious.info.

Aside

The act of writing down one’s thoughts causes one to gain deeper knowledge about the topic, in fact, I discovered the limitation of logic and rationality during trying to write my first article about beliefs. It felt like a mental breakthrough, I jumped up and down in a public bar, and then had a panic attack from existential crisis.